Day 11-13

One more day of freedom and it's back to school. I don't know whether to cry or laugh. I'm not ready to leave my baby again, but at the same time I'm ready for some adult(though I use this term loosely in regards to my classmates) interaction. I'm dreading going back to having no time for anything. It makes me feel so guilty not being able to spend the time I want with my son. That's the worst part, then add to that not having time to practice photography or do much else, and you get a miserable Cheese. I'm just hoping that since I'll actually be in clincals doing more than reading a book and listening to a boring teacher, I'll be more interested and not feel so bored with it all. I need some kind of interest in nursing sparked again. I don't want to spend the rest of my semesters in school feeling like I'm wasting my time. I just so look forward to taking photography classes next year, it's going to be so wonderful. My aunt might take some with me, so I'll have a buddy, but even if she doesn't, I'm really hoping to make a friend or two. I need friends so badly. I'm thoroughly sick of being so lonely.

Thursday night Travis, Maddox, and I went and drove around town for a little bit so I could take some pictures. I had a blast and felt so good to go out and photograph something that wasn't in my own yard. Good inspiration. Haven't done much else this weekend. Enjoying my son, watching movies with Travis, and playing on the internetz. Tonight(or last night rather), Maddox and I drove around with Jamie for a little while, though we didn't stay out long. Now I'm about to go to bed, enjoy sleeping in for the last time in a while(I know I'll have weekends, but when you get used to getting up early every day, it's hard to sleep in).

I just hope my teachers don't bust a nut about my hair color. I don't think it's too out there.